I am reclaiming me.

       On any given day if you show up at my house unannounced I will have on my sweatpants that are getting a little too big, my husband’s shirt which is about 5 sizes too big, my hair pulled back mostly from the night before maybe washed maybe not, and most certainly no makeup. When I went out I would put on my one good pair of jeans and an old tee-shirt that I grabbed out of my dresser. I was stuck in the mommy rut.

      I want my children, especially Baby Girl, to know that just because you have children you shouldn’t disappear. I love my children more than anything, but I can’t let myself become only their mom. It’s taken four months for me to realize that I was slowly disappearing into being only Mommi to Lime and Baby Girl. I wasn’t my husband’s wife or the women who likes to do crafts and sew. All I felt like was Mommi; my days were consumed with potty training, feeding, and nap times and with the fun things (for the kiddos) in-between.

     With reclaiming me I am not saying that I am not a Mommi, I am saying that I love my children, they will ALWAYS come first, but I am still going to make time for myself. I am going “escape” to more places than just the grocery store, I will venture out with a good book, or most likely a gossip magazine and drink a coffee; if I’m lucky I will be with a friend instead and we can catch up. Now instead of changing out of my “home uniform” into my “going out” clothes I am going to take the time to not only make sure my children look their best, I am too. I will wear makeup, my hair will be styled, (I made sure of that by cutting off over 7 inches), my clothes will nice and spit of free, and once Baby Girl is out of her “I’m going to pull on everything, because I can” stage I will wear earrings and a necklace. I will have times that I will allow myself to wear my sweats; it will not be an all-day event.

      I will finally take the time to make time for myself.