I wouldn’t change my life.

       I wake up between 4 and 6:30 every day, big time difference I know!, I can be up in the middle of the night sometimes 3 or 4 times, I have many sleepless nights due to the kiddos or because I am the over worried wife that when the hubs is at work or out to sea, if I don’t get an e mail saying goodnight, I can’t fall asleep. Even on days that I get to “Sleep in” Lime is usually running amuck down stairs and wakes me up. My husband can be gone for weeks, even months at a time. Lime and Baby Girl aren’t always the happiest little kiddos and will cry and scream to let me know, Lime has also started the “terrible twos” just trying to figure out his little life and where he stands and what he is and isn’t allowed to do, he also is a nap pirate and doesn’t always take one. I live 3,000 miles away from my parents, brother, my in-laws and friends that I have known for close to five years. Funny thing is I wouldn’t change it.

        I desperately wanted children, no big fertility issues, I had one miscarriage, then within months of being able to “try” again I was pregnant with Lime and with Baby Girl, well she came when she wanted to, that time being two months before we started “trying”. As my friends call me I am a Fertile Myrtle. I am super mom, I handle sleepless nights and long days sometimes with me time but mostly with out. When I am about to rip out my hair or go hid in the closet until Lime comes and finds me because after all he is my mini stalker, (This kid can find me anywhere!) or Baby Girl needs to eat, I remind myself that I am truly blessed with two AMAZING kids. They may drive me insano some days but mostly we have awesome days with very little melt downs. As for the super early wake ups, I have time with just Baby Girl who is all smiles and laughs, I talk to her and the best she can at four months she talks back. I also have coffee, lots and lots of coffee.

      Of course I wish my husband would be home all the time, he is my best friend and we do everything together. If he was home all the time though I wouldn’t be able to miss him, I wouldn’t have that little hole in my heart that will only be filled when I see him on the boat dock or when I hear his beast of a truck pulling up and Lime screaming “DADDY!!!!” and running to the window to see him, making sure it’s real, before running and trying to open the front door. (His plans of that are always foiled with the baby locks) I actually have a chance to miss my husband and really appreciate all that he does around the house. Let’s face it, when you have someone to help you all the time you’re not going to notice that he was able to keep the baby happy or that he helps get dinner plated and gets everyone to the table. Its part of the everyday hectic life and a lot of it’s taken for granted. When the Hubs is gone my life really is crazy; I mange two kiddos that want what they want when they want it and it doesn’t matter what’s going on. Not to mention, that Lime wants to be a big boy and use the big boy potty; which usually happens when I am trying to get Baby girl to Sleep or when she is trying to eat. As soon as the Hubs gets home I know everything will be alright, he will do his daddy thing and somehow magically make the kiddos behave and calm down. I will also sleep like a baby, yes a baby; waking up in the middle of the night with baby girl and falling asleep again in the strangest of strange positions. (Think, sitting up straight with your head slightly tilted back and to the side (school pictures tilt to the side) with a 14 pound weight on your chest and your legs either straight out or one leg hanging off the couch and the other contoured into unnatural ways)

       I miss my family and East Coast friends daily. I love where I live, and have always wanted to live in Oregon. I mean seriously as far back as I can remember, I heard of Oregon and wanted to live there. I don’t know why there was just something about this state pulling me towards it. I finally feel like I belong somewhere, not that I am just a passerby. Do I wish I could still take a long drive and see family, OF COURSE! My family (In-laws included) is very close and saying good bye to them was the hardest thing I have had to do. This move however has been the best thing for my small family; we have ALWAYS had someone close to help us with the simple things in life. I even had someone who watched Lime a few times so I could vacuum. We have learned to lean on each other and how to really take care of things on our own.                We can now say that we are self-sufficient. Even when I went into labor with Baby girl, we could have handled it on our own. Thankfully I have one of the most amazing friends who made the two hour drive in less than an hour an half on a moment’s notice to stay with Lime overnight so the hubs could witness the miracle that is Baby Girl.

      My life isn’t for everyone, it can be challenging, it can be lonely, and if you let it, it can be downright overwhelming. But if you have the right mind set, the one of without all the stresses I wouldn’t be able to appreciate all the good I have, the two amazing kiddos, a loving husband, the family and friends who love me and my little family, a warm bed, fridge full of food (when I actually get to the grocery store) and a roof over my head, then my life is wonderful and why would anyone want to change it?